I have no idea, either
if you are confused this is for you
A lot of times things happen randomly, sometime dismantling our old fortress of belief and habits.
This pandemic put us into a house arrest.
there are a lot of things going on, life and death and all that is between.
when we try to form conclusions it goes against our expectation.
when we don’t know and also accept it.
there you will be free in this chaos